Just giving it my all.

Alot of people consider me to be oblivious, sensitive, and gullible.

Although they're all probably true, I'm almost killer at perceiving. So much, that's is almost scary.
But no one ever notices.

It's pretty funny at how love [or even 'like'] works. One random day, you meet this person. You know nothing of them. What their past is like, what their personality is like, or even if they're sane or not. Nothing. And yet, there's something about them that attracts you to them, wanting you to find out more about them. Something that says "talk to them", or "smile to them". And you do. They reciprocate the notion, and BANG. It's a wrap from there (as us young folks would say).

You steadily gravitate yourself towards the person. Without realizing, you crave to know about them. Want more of their prescense.

You then proceed to slowly give yourself to them, unsure of whether they're doing the same, or worse, want you at all.

Then you kind of find yourself at a standstill.


Ok..that was my take on being all "observant". But back to what I was saying before:

I'm pretty good at perceiving things.
Why is it that I always seem to find myself in situations, you might ask?
Although I perceive, I don't always listen. My optimism gets in my way, having me think that "maybe it'll be different"....every. single. time.
You'd think I'd learn? No. If anything, I dig myself into an even bigger grave than the last.

Now, here's my message to you:
Remember how you told me, that I'm one of the most giving persons you know?
I respond with...it's my greatest asset, but also my greatest fall.
For as much as I am giving...I'm selfish when it comes down to love [or 'like'].
If it's not all of you...for me, it isn't enough.


Don't think I don't know what runs through your mind. Just know that I'm afraid of asking the question, and finding myself back at square one again.